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I’ve spent so long trying to write a post about this outfit. I’ve been trying to be witty, or profound or informative. But I’m uninspired.

Over the last few weeks I’ve been in this little rut. There’s a dip in my moods and depression has been riding on my back to remind me it’s there all the time. It’s been a bit difficult. I’m tired, irritated, unhappy and completely uninspired.

Motivation to do everyday things has run thin, I can’t bring myself to get out of bed or complete simple enough tasks. It sucks.

The good news is that I’m working on it. Accepting help has been quite terrifying for me, as though I was giving into my mental illness. But it’s not that at all, it’s helping me live with something that affects my daily life.

I’m so aware of myself in recent weeks that I’m torn in two ways – in one, I’m learning on how to better myself. In the other, understanding myself has meant I’m too overwhelmed to actually do anything about it. But slowly I’m changing my thought processes, challenging myself daily and finding small pockets of motivation to carry out tasks.

I’m pushing on through, trying to refocus and work out my long term goals and ambitions. Starting to take a little better care of myself and my appearance and dressing nicer. And most importantly for my state of mind – I’m managing to get my mojo back with creativity and am drawing and sewing a bit more!

Progress is progress, right?